Standing in my Truth

The process of art-making continues to teach me, every single day. I don’t know why that still surprises me. I could be tooling around, doing the same thing I’ve always done and BAM! something hits me.

Glass chunks. Experimenting for upcoming jewelry collection.

As you know, I’ve gone through a business rebranding this year. Along with that I’ve tried to really hone in on what it is that I’m trying to accomplish. I came up with the name Quirky&Odd because I’ve always been a little quirky, my work has never really been mainstream, and I wanted to stand more in my truth.

Laying out glass pieces in preparation for forming in the kiln.

What I’d realized this week was that I hadn’t been standing in my truth. I was still designing based on a model that doesn’t fit me; one where I consider the market in a way that doesn’t ring clear with me. Don’t get me wrong…I want to make some amazing stuff that y’all will love, that’s for sure!

I think this “issue” is one that separates one type of artist from another. I’m realizing that I’m in the camp of artists that need to create based on what is in them, as opposed to designing with what customers will buy, in mind.

It’s a conundrum. Of course you want to sell your work, and of course you want to make what people love. On the other hand, trying to figure out what people like is not an easy task–at least not for me. I find that people love my work more when I’m creating what I want to create. That’s the quirky stuff. The one-of-a-kind stuff. The “Wow, this is different, I haven’t seen anything like this before” stuff. It’s also what feeds my soul.

Ready to be put though a 5 hour melting, annealing, and cooling process in my Paragon SC3 kiln. Do me proud, babies.

So, that’s where I am right now, and that’s where I’m heading. I’m getting back to listening to my materials and environment for where to proceed next. What to make next. What to explore further. Sometimes it takes me on a wild good chase that comes up empty, but I always learn something in the process. Sometimes it ends up being pure magic.

I’ve decided that it doesn’t have to be all or nothing. I’ll be counting on my Inner Sanctum VIP-ers for their valued input!

NOTE: The pictures in this post are the start of me getting back to following what comes to me. This week, in a meditation I got an idea for a collection. I’ll reveal more as the experiments proceed and it starts to come together physically. I’m really excited about it, and I hope you will be, too.

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Letting it Be What it Wants to Be

I’ve been continuing on with the art leading the way. I find myself working as a zoom lens. Honing in on a small area and not thinking about what is outside it. It sucks me in, and when I zoom back out it’s interesting to see what has been created. In this way, it’s not me running the show and controlling what will appear. It is the creative process, in real time, dictating what happens.

Stepping back from this piece I can see many things emerging. I have more to do before the picture will be fully visible to me and just because I see certain things right now, doesn’t mean that those will be the images that survive in the end. So, I continue to hone in on the areas that need to be filled, and suspend judgment until I embark on the next step of refinement.

It’s a work in process. I just meant to type that it’s a work in progress, but I think that “work in process” is pretty accurate as well. One little stroke at a time it unfolds. Much like life. As it is in progress you might sit back and think, “Yeah. I don’t like what I see so much.” But then you have to remember to have faith, and continue working. Nothing is permanent, everything can change, and sometimes it’s ugly before beauty emerges. Sometimes beauty doesn’t emerge, so you disconnect from the work for a while. Maybe you come back and try again. Maybe you don’t. Maybe you come back and think, “Hm. It’s not really that bad. I actually like it.”

It’s pretty fascinating to watch and experience, and I enjoy relating the art process to life, letting it teach me.

Accept things as they are. No! But, yes.

The most important thing I learned from Eckhart Tolle is that, in any situation, there are three things you can do.

First, and most important is that you need to accept the situation. Byron Katie’s work has also taught me this. Accepting does not mean saying something is ok, or condoning something you don’t like or disagree with. It means accepting that it already IS. It exists as it is, and there is nothing you can do about that at that moment. It is futile to fight against what already is in existence. It is your thoughts about it that bring you pain, not the actual situation or event. Once you say yes, this exists, then comes the next step.

So, what are the three things that you can do after accepting that the situation is in existence?

* You can accept it. You can choose to say, “Ok. I’m going to accept this as it is, and live with it this way.”

* You can walk away from it. You can choose to say, “Ok. I accept that it is the way that it is, but I choose to walk away from it and not be a part of it, or even around it.”

* You can change it, or start taking steps to change it. You can choose to say, “I accept that this situation is in existence, and I choose to do things to change it. I will not be angry and upset to the extent that it disables me, and I will do what I can, until I can’t. And that is ok too. I can also choose choices number one or number two at any time.”

I started teaching this principle to my children at their very early ages. Validating that their feelings are real, and after a time of feeling them, also teaching them how not to be debilitated by them by knowing that they alone have the choice of how to handle situations.

The most empowering thing you can do is to accept a situation as it already is. The moment you do that, you can get to work (or not) on whatever it is that comes next for you. Much more can be accomplished when working on the choice of changing something when you are rational, clear-minded, and not overwhelmed with emotion.

I know that some people will read this and think it is saying to ignore your emotions, that they aren’t valid. That is not true at all. It is a teaching that, when you understand it, acknowledging the emotions for what they are and helps you move beyond them. It is being an observer of your emotions rather than BEING your feelings and letting them eat you up from the inside.

An Eckhart Tolle talk on feelings.

And another, about complaining.

There are many more on Youtube.


I’m adding a coloring photo for the purpose of the header on this post when I share it on facebook so it doesn’t look like an ad for my books by grabbing my web site header.

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