There was a time in my life when I thought I wanted to be a production artist. When I studied textile design in college the head of the department had me convinced that I had no artistic talent. I made a decision right then that I loved the process of making art so much that it didn’t matter to me if I didn’t have the creative eye, I’d work for a designer and reproduce their designs for them. I had a brief stint of that working at a weaving studio and I did love it, but it didn’t pay enough to survive on much more than cheese and mayonnaise sandwiches.
So why do I tell you that? Because I’ve overcome that and changed my mind. I have had an inkling that something was going on in this last year but I ignored it. How many times have you heard me say, “I just came up with something new and I could make them all day?” I was partially right. I could make them for a day but after that, yikes.
This week I had the opportunity to make 54 of the same focal bead and it brought up so many things as I was working. First, it does really help you to hone your skills and timing and that is a good thing. I suspect that when I go back to the torch on Monday I’ll have jumped a notch in my control of the glass. But it brought up all kinds of other interesting thoughts too. (That’s the joy of creating art for hours at a time….you go into the zone and your mind wanders).
It brought up frustration with the fact that I was getting all kinds of cool ideas in the zone and couldn’t stop to explore them. I guess I could have but I’d never meet my deadline for this project. I felt trapped, especially because I had that black and yellow/orange set waiting for me to finish it so I could show you.
The monotony of it all allowed me to rethink my business plan and my style of working. Always the multi-tasker, I brainstormed. I think I might be a one-of-a-kind kinda artist for a while. I think it will add more value for customers too. It’s already started to happened but reluctantly because I’ve felt like I need things to be able to reproduce. (Must be that college training/decision)