…and it’s all been pretty much in my head. Things slowly change around here but the whirlwind up in the noggin’ keeps spinning at lightning speed. I have been making work but it was for show inventory, which was kinda dismal. I mean, I made profit but not like previous years. I guess it’s a good thing that the wheels have been turning and new ideas are flooding in (besides the micro mosaics).
Would you believe that just this past week I even considered going back to graduate school for an MFA? I love degrees and school. But, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that all those things that they can teach you there, I can do on my own. I mean, that would be a streamlined way of learning some technique but it would also be a lot of time learning things that I’ve already been through like about 9 credit hours of art history.
Also, it is $25,000 a year. Not really in the budget but doable if I really put my mind to it. For $25,000 I could take a lot of classes and workshops in areas that I specifically know I want, and travel to visit friends! So, MFA is off the table right now.
I’m also considering a career change. I’ve said it in private to a handful of people and dared not to say it out loud in front of other beadmakers but I think the glass bead is passé. The window has closed to make a living selling just glass beads. That is just the trend that I have experienced. That doesn’t mean that there aren’t people out there doing it and doing it well but it is getting increasingly harder to do so.
So, this career change. What I really mean to say is a sabbatical from career. I’m not sure yet. But as I consider my goals for the new year I am evaluating what makes me truly happy, what I want more of in my life and what will enrich not only my life but those around me. Not imposing pressure on myself is seeming to be top on the list and the major place I self-impose it is when it comes to business. And the crazy thing is…I don’t have to! There is not one thing in my life that says I have to put that pressure on myself.
Even when I haven’t really been trying to sell, I have had the pressure on myself and feeling like I “should” be doing something more. I have found other ways to take on pressure. ::sigh::
So, I’m working on that.
Last year my word for the year was Congruence and I am pretty happy with what I’ve done with myself. I’ve had more fun too. This year I’m leaning more towards two words. Peace and Calm. Since I’ve started this healthy eating stuff and done a 21 day detox as well as other good things for my mind, body and soul I have experienced euphoria and I want it always.
I have lots more to say on this and I will be back atcha soon. I’m not quitting bead making but I am transitioning it to not be just about beads and jewelry but more about art. See? I didn’t need no stinking MFA classes to learn and inspire me!